Well, Sunday nights are the worst in anticipation of Mondays even worseness. Mondays means I most likely stayed up too late the night before, but I am shocked wide awake with my alarm, which comes too fast. I may or may not have made it to the gym, and I probably just ate whatever the hell I felt like eating (and whenever) for the past three days. I am exhausted, and I usually want to eat my lunch by about 10am. And since I am so disorganized, I probably didn't pack a nice (and healthy) mid-morning snack to tide me over.
And it doesn't help that I had a "fun" weekend this time around. With family. Which means lots drinking and eating and general laziness. Although I did spend my fair share of time in the pool & on the trampoline. So that balances things out, right?!
"No way" says my pants.
If any of you out there have ever been fat or have food issues, you know what I mean when I say that these days feel like the bottom. You know you feel like garbage. And you know that you put yourself there. And you feel a bit like a failure.
The really best thing about having done what I've done for myself in the body department is knowing that I can turn this crappy weekend around. That it is NOT forever, this feeling, and that I have the power to change it all for the better!
That's the best fricken feeling in the world, my friends.
And I know that one day I will have fully conquered this. And I won't have to stop myself from going gaga at a buffet, and stop myself from standing in the kitchen opening bag after bag of junk when I am having a hollow day. Because I believe people can change. Scratch that...I believe that I can change.
I can damn well win this battle, this week. Next week is a crap shoot, but isn't that just the way life goes anyway?
later loves
I am going to (maybe) start posting real recipes here. I am not a big recipe person, but with all the diet-changing stuff I have been doing I thought it might be fun to put them out there! These will NOT be original recipes...I haven't completely changed! HA!
If any of you out there have ever been fat or have food issues, you know what I mean when I say that these days feel like the bottom. You know you feel like garbage. And you know that you put yourself there. And you feel a bit like a failure.
The really best thing about having done what I've done for myself in the body department is knowing that I can turn this crappy weekend around. That it is NOT forever, this feeling, and that I have the power to change it all for the better!
That's the best fricken feeling in the world, my friends.
And I know that one day I will have fully conquered this. And I won't have to stop myself from going gaga at a buffet, and stop myself from standing in the kitchen opening bag after bag of junk when I am having a hollow day. Because I believe people can change. Scratch that...I believe that I can change.
I can damn well win this battle, this week. Next week is a crap shoot, but isn't that just the way life goes anyway?
later loves
I am going to (maybe) start posting real recipes here. I am not a big recipe person, but with all the diet-changing stuff I have been doing I thought it might be fun to put them out there! These will NOT be original recipes...I haven't completely changed! HA!
I know! I just know. Everything here. Yes!
ReplyDeleteMondays are the worst (especially when you have a tequila hangover and you're forced to go to work). Also, eating junk to remedy the hangover, which then gives you a Tuesday food hangover where you're body is just screaming for some vegetables.
Why do we do this to ourselves?
By the way, you're awesome and I'm looking forward to today's prompt.
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