Body Moving...We be getting down with the sound so soothing

This is a post about weight loss, healthy living, working out, and feeling good about yourself.

Everyone has different reasons for starting a "workout regimen". Some do it for the fitness benefits, the energy level that can be attained through no other way (that I've found at least). Some do it to lose weight and help accomplish their "healthy lifestyle" goals. And some people do it because they just want to look good!

I will admit that I started because I wanted to get healthier. I've never really been concerned with "losing weight" because I know that overall health is about so much more than that number on the scale. And I have never been concerned with how I look, per se, as again, I am so much more than my dress size. And I love the energy I get after I've worked out! It allows me to get so much more accomplished.

And then I started to get slimmer. And my clothes started to fit better and then stopped fitting completely.

And then, to be honest, I was going to the gym 'cause I wanted to look HOT!

There, I said it.

I figure I spent the first half of my life not giving a hoot, and wasting my youth away.

And now, for whatever reason, I am in the right place to do something about this.

No more wasting time.


It's kind of funny...more sad than funny actually...that just as I am finally getting my outside-self to look just the way I want it, I find that something else is falling out of place. I've finally figured out what kind of clothes look good on me, and what I love to wear. And I am finally "trimming down" to the point where I feel I am looking better than I have ever looked in my adult life. And yet there is still something missing on the inside. Or it feels like there is.

I have been writing a lot lately on this topic. How a person changes over time until she gets to the point that she can no longer recognize the person she used to be. For me it feels like I have just woken up and noticed this change, but I know that if I were to look back through my journals, I would be able to track this revelation back for quite awhile.

It feels like I am having an identity crisis, even though I know that this is just the natural order of things. Change, growth, moving forwards, backwards, onward.

I'm really on a "Deep Thoughts" kick lately. It is overflowing from my journals and ending up here, for all the worldly internet to see and pass judgement on. The only thing I hope to gain from this is more insight into my own world, and maybe give you permission to do some digging into your own past, present and future as well.

I am not complaining about any of these changes, and I'm not really frustrated. I'm just confused as to where I am heading compared to where I thought I would be at this point in my life, and how my goals have changed. I am mostly just excited about all of this, especially to see what will happen from here!

"Excited", in this instance of course, means completely freaking out, by the way!

Thanks for listening!

later loves