At work again, and that song came on. So it reminded me to Blog!!
I may have to work the week of Halloween at Dr. R's office. That's a full week, probably. I just don’t know if I’m cut out for this full-time job thing. I miss Lucas, and I miss the freedom of being at home all day, and I miss not feeling tired all the time. I could barely keep my eyes open this morning. Plus I would need to get the babysitter (eg. a grandparent of some kind) to take Lucas to playschool and pick him up, and it would be early in the morning, and I just don’t like it. Russ thinks it’s a good idea, of course, but I’m just not sure. I think I can handle small spurts of work…my Fridays are fine and Saturday at TM is more like play than work. But three weeks, followed by another week might just send me over the edge. At least I like it a bit better over at Dr. R’s…it will save my sanity for a moment more.
Now, don’t think I am a big baby for complaining about working a full day, 5 days a week (or four in this case). I have get anxious thinking about working all day, and getting up in the morning and making it through without totally going crazy! Once I get to work, it’s better, but I’m left thinking about all the stuff I could be getting done at home or what Lucas is doing or how tired I’m going to be later, etc. etc. It’s enough to make a person go bonkers…which I already sort of am, so anything I can do to curb the progression of my “let’s get it started, yah, let’s get it started in here” the better! I don’t think I’m going to continue with Primerica in the new year…it’s just not my cup of tea. And I’m not sure if Dr. R will need me Fridays if he takes on a new associate…or if he will want me regular full-time and if I’m ready for that.
I guess every Mom goes through this, I’ve just been able to put it off a little longer! Go back to work, or not?? Where? Full time? Part time? The whole working from home thing would be awesome, but with Primerica it’s all evening stuff and I am just not prepared to sacrifice my precious time with Russel for all the money in the world. And I can only do so much with TM at home…and since my classes aren’t doing so well, I don’t even know how much longer I can stand doing that (what with all the rejection and what not!!).
OK this post is way too long…I could go on forever…but I won’t subject you to that!!! I wish I could just be a SAHM with no complications!!
Hello dearie. I find it hard working full time and NOT having a child. There is always stuff I could be doing at home for the 8 hrs I'm at work (Like sleep. I love sleep!). I'm all about the lists and I hate doing anything spontaneous-ish because if I do I know I'll wake up the next morning and not have any clean clothes to wear to work or something. I don't know what to tell you. You've gotta do what feels right. I know that doesn't help you...good luck!
ReplyDeleteDon't give up...something will work itself out! And don't give up on the classes either. I always love your layouts and plan on taking more once this busy time is over!!
ReplyDeleteI honestly don't know what to say, I could never do the SAHM thing, ever. I can barely last a sick day at home without wishing I was back at work...........
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