Lost...but not yet found

But the canvas I made yesterday gave me a little release and a little smile at least. I had lots of fun in Nadia and Laurie's class. It was good to be the one getting advice for once, instead of the one always giving it. Plus they have lots of paint and foam stamps to play with!! Heaven.



I have decided that my word for the year is "trust". And yes, I know that the year is almost half over, but bear with me people. It will be next June that I finally pick next year's word, so it works. Trust, because I need to be able to trust that my ideas and my decisions are good ones. Trust in my abilities and trust in the people around me. Trust that when someone compliments me, it's the truth. Trust in myself. Hmmm. Yah. Something like that. I had a rough night last night. Was up till 3:30...yay me...just journaling and watching Hellboy, which is a totally rad movie by-the-way. Found out some news that hit me a little harder than I thought it would. Had a moment of quiet reflection during which I totally had an inward freak out and got some of it out on paper. Mostly just doodles, but some of them might make it on to a page or a canvas! I've been getting better at dealing with my "emotional time of the month..." lately, but this time it hit me really hard. Super. I know working out and eating good stuff helps, but I think this time it just snuck up on me and caught me off guard and I just wasn't prepared. Having a "word" and really focusing on that one thing does help though. Focus Lisa!!

Work was good. Made up the new staff kit for July and promptly decided that I wasn't going to do a scrapbook layout with it...so I bought some Love Elsie frames (on sale...woot!!) and am doing up a little hangy-do for my front door. Shut the front door!! It was nice to see Lindsay again...missed that girl so much I had started to forget what she looked like...beautiful as ever! Starbucks treat. Juli dashes to a wedding...how come her husband will wear a pink tie and mine won't!?!? Learned that I am an anti-girl!

Went for yummy Greek food with some friends from high school last night (expensive...yikes!!!) and then sang karaoke. This is my friend and her fiance's favourite past-time, I swear. Whenever we go out, it's like, do you want to go karaoke after? It's so funny! They know the best place to go and they pick their songs out really quick and just get up and go. I even did a little number last night...1234 by Feist. I know. Not very creative. But this place we went to has "the best selection" and they mean it! There were HUGE GIGANTIC ENORMOUS binders full of song choices. You really have to know what you want before you go. It was pretty busy too, so lots of singers. Four of us sang. Sarah kicked our asses. Scotty D rocked out!

Russ and I had a nice quiet breakfast at Albert's this morning (Lucas at gmas for a sleepover). It turns out we both used to go there when we were kids. His parents took him when he was just a little baby and showed him off to the waitresses. And I went after swimming Sunday mornings at Kinsmen with Grannie and Pa and Mom and Dad. We would eat pancakes and be all sleepy from the pool-action. Hazaa to the good-old-days.

Lucas is home (I really miss him when he's away) Napping. I just had a nice cold freezy and am sitting in my nice and cool basement playing here. Maybe will scrapbook/create something later. Russ is at his buddy's house. Dad's for dinner. Russ has tomorrow and Tuesday off for the holiday. We are volunteering at the Millwoods Canada Day celebration (set up) so we will be busy, but having fun!! Hope it's not as hot as it was today...killer. I stop functioning after it hits 25! They have a crap-tastic splash park at Millwoods Park...but I might not care as long as it's wet!